30 january 2000

I turned around just now, and behind me, on the couch, his head pillowed on this green pillow I got him for Christmas, is the man I love more than anything on this earth. He has brought me all the love and acceptance and support any woman could ask for, and asks only that I love him in return, and treat him with respect and compassion.

Why am I writing this? Because on Thursday, he's going away to work on a contract in Phoenix, and he'll be gone for five or six weeks. We haven't been apart for longer than a day, maybe two, since he moved down here in July. We've fought, we've fussed, we've had our growing pains, but that growth has been together, not apart.

I was so frightened by this relationship when it started. It seemed like too much too fast, but I decided to go with it and see what happened.

Best decision I've ever made in my life.

Finally, I feel hope for my future. I have a direction, and an idea of what I want, and I have someone to share that with, and that's the best part. I have someone in my life who says that I'm everything he's ever wanted in a woman, and he's everything I could ever want in a man and more.

I love him.